Wish I Had Started Sooner

I spent most of my 30's in love with someone who ultimately didn't love me enough to marry me.

When I have children, I will wish that I hadn't waited so long to have them. But, I'll also know that I have enjoyed plenty of adventures before they arrived

Remember My Life Before Children

On the days when my children are driving me bananas, I will remember how lonely it was before they arrived. I'll remember how I wondered if it would ever be more than me and two cats. I'll remember how it felt to return home to a dark house night after night.

When I remember these facts, I'll forget that my children are driving me bananas

Celebrate Their Opinions

Babies come from the womb with opinions....

I will celebrate my children when they express opinions..... even if their opinions don't match my opinions

What an odd thing to hear at work....

Today a co-worker said "you are going to be a great mother"

He liked my attitude and thought I'd be able to handle teenagers one day because I'm handling a woman who behaves like a negotiating pit bull. She thinks she can avoid required work by doing these things: cajole, worry, pretend to be dumb, act confused, sound surprised, express shock, and ask more questions. My goal in dealing with her is to remain positive, upbeat, and firm on the boundaries - she's got some work to do, and she'd better get to it.

I told him that he had no idea how much I needed to hear his comment today. Then he admitted that he was concerned he'd stuck his foot in his mouth when he said what he said.

I told him I was trying to become a mom.... who knows what he thought of that comment?!?

Who Knows How They Arrive?

Renamed the blog, and maybe that action will get me kick-started.....

I don't know if I'm going to have a baby physically or I'm going to adopt.

I worry I'm too old

I worry my eggs are too old

I worry about being physically pregnant

I worry about NOT being a mom

I'm really tired of feeling stuck & worried.....

A Toddler Overnight!

I receive Estela's latest update....

Somehow she has become a toddler in one month. Last month's update she still seemed like a baby. This month she just doesn't seem much like a baby - more like a little girl who needs a mommy and (someday) a daddy