We'll travel when we want to travel

Last time I flew was to Bellingham, Washington for a fall break/birthday trip. That trip started with me sitting next to a young woman with a toddler girl.

When I offered a second pair of hands while she was trying to get a bottle for her daughter, she said, "you can always tell who has kids because they offer to help. You must know what it's like to travel with a 2 year old"

I wish I did.

When I have children, I'll have to learn how to check our bags. I'll travel with a bag full of snacks, games, and toys instead of books. I'll play games instead of listen to my ipod. Eventually, I'll have conversations instead of silence.

My free-wheeling adventuresome spirit will love showing my children wonderful places.

They may not have blue eyes or my hair

They may not have blue eyes or my hair, but that's okay because they will be mine.

I will love them with everything inside me just as I once loved you

Wish I Had Started Sooner

I spent most of my 30's in love with someone who ultimately didn't love me enough to marry me.

When I have children, I will wish that I hadn't waited so long to have them. But, I'll also know that I have enjoyed plenty of adventures before they arrived

Remember My Life Before Children

On the days when my children are driving me bananas, I will remember how lonely it was before they arrived. I'll remember how I wondered if it would ever be more than me and two cats. I'll remember how it felt to return home to a dark house night after night.

When I remember these facts, I'll forget that my children are driving me bananas

Celebrate Their Opinions

Babies come from the womb with opinions....

I will celebrate my children when they express opinions..... even if their opinions don't match my opinions

What an odd thing to hear at work....

Today a co-worker said "you are going to be a great mother"

He liked my attitude and thought I'd be able to handle teenagers one day because I'm handling a woman who behaves like a negotiating pit bull. She thinks she can avoid required work by doing these things: cajole, worry, pretend to be dumb, act confused, sound surprised, express shock, and ask more questions. My goal in dealing with her is to remain positive, upbeat, and firm on the boundaries - she's got some work to do, and she'd better get to it.

I told him that he had no idea how much I needed to hear his comment today. Then he admitted that he was concerned he'd stuck his foot in his mouth when he said what he said.

I told him I was trying to become a mom.... who knows what he thought of that comment?!?

Who Knows How They Arrive?

Renamed the blog, and maybe that action will get me kick-started.....

I don't know if I'm going to have a baby physically or I'm going to adopt.

I worry I'm too old

I worry my eggs are too old

I worry about being physically pregnant

I worry about NOT being a mom

I'm really tired of feeling stuck & worried.....